Well, maybe not a virgin, but at least a martyr. What better way to go... with life everlasting with my God totally assured. But it didn't work out that way. at least not yet. But at my age, I realize that life is actually long and that there is a lot to do if I just look for it.
But as for saving my soul, it takes a lot more work than just finding a way to become a virgin martyr.
